Financial Pressures...

Hi.

 

I am feeling a lot better. The voices are there, but I am able to get on with things mostly. Really I am quite functional.

 

BUT!!!

 

I am under huge financial pressures this month!

 

I even got a letter that they are cancelling my DMP because of an admin error. I would be totally ruined!

 

I cant do anything - just sit and wait. I feel pretty low at the moment.

Current Condition:

At the moment I feel ok, fine. I feel relaxed, almost content.

However the voices or presences are present.

It does give a 'darkness' inside me. As if I could be violent if pushed.

I am calm, and try to stay calm, but still that darkenss pervades.

I feel drowsy at work, but I think this is due to lack of stimulation.

When stimulated I can relax and concentrate on my work.

My head was hurting, a physical pain, not headache, something else.

At the moment it seems ok.

So I do have a conflict of a darkness and light. So I try to remain honest to keep the light.

If that makes sense.