I quit Abilify. On Olanzapine now.


Olanzapine in working.

Abilify was hell, looking back.

It hurt that all.

When I was taking it - I was restless, and agitated.
When I was off it - my brain hurt like a wound in there.

The olanzapine is working. So far.

I saw my Psychiatrist.

We had a chat.

We discussed side effects and symptoms:

Side effects:
Restlessness/ boredom

Symptoms:
Mental disturbances

Increase dosage - increases side effects - reduces symptoms
Decrease dosage - decreases side effects - increses symptoms.

I kept my dosage the sane - plus I refused to take Diazapem (tranquiliser).

Feeling good..

I feel good now.

 

I feel strong and confident.

 

My body seems to have adjusted to my new meds.

 

I dont want to change the dose.

 

I am enjoying a good diet and exercise ritual.

 

Also some people are keeping me strong..

Medicated man.

My super powers have gone...

 

When I was unmedicated, although painful, life was very interesting, and I had insight and a depth that I dont have now. I was having some very strange experiences. However..I am not going to unmedicate until I feel comfortable. However it did totally rock!!!

 

I felt like a complete nutter!

Financial Pressures...

Hi.

 

I am feeling a lot better. The voices are there, but I am able to get on with things mostly. Really I am quite functional.

 

BUT!!!

 

I am under huge financial pressures this month!

 

I even got a letter that they are cancelling my DMP because of an admin error. I would be totally ruined!

 

I cant do anything - just sit and wait. I feel pretty low at the moment.

Current Condition:

At the moment I feel ok, fine. I feel relaxed, almost content.

However the voices or presences are present.

It does give a 'darkness' inside me. As if I could be violent if pushed.

I am calm, and try to stay calm, but still that darkenss pervades.

I feel drowsy at work, but I think this is due to lack of stimulation.

When stimulated I can relax and concentrate on my work.

My head was hurting, a physical pain, not headache, something else.

At the moment it seems ok.

So I do have a conflict of a darkness and light. So I try to remain honest to keep the light.

If that makes sense.

Update.

Things are going well.

 

Present symptoms:

 

Voices - quiet, boring, manageable.

Deluisons - negligible.

Paranoia - negligible.

Restlessness - extreme.

Boredom - extreme.