Update.

Things are going well.

 

Present symptoms:

 

Voices - quiet, boring, manageable.

Deluisons - negligible.

Paranoia - negligible.

Restlessness - extreme.

Boredom - extreme.

 

 

Feeling weak

I havent been in work the last two days.

 

I feel very weak and slightly ill.

 

I feel as if I have no strenght at all. I don't want to go outside even.

 

I find it difficult to get a good night sleep.

 

I am hoping this is just me getting used to the drug - hopefully just a phase!

OMG the voices have gone..

It feels so strange.

 

Like as if a year of torture has suddenly stopped suddenly. I don't how I was coping. If you explained to someone what I was going through they would freak.

 

My head feels odd. I feel very drowsy but I can't sleep.

 

I feel quite sad and tearful too.

 

I am a bit depressed now - because of some aspects of life best left unsaid.

 

The voices were so hurtful, violating and horrific it is a great relief for them to be gone.

 

There are quiet echos, but it is very bearable.

 

I will keep hoping and optimistic, though!. :)

Feeling drowsy today.

Feeling very drowsy today.

 

The work day is just dragging.

 

I want to go home. This is the worst day in a long time.

Feeling pretty good now..

As the title, I feel pretty good. A lot better than for a while.

 

I feel a little happy, my mind seems more relaxed, and my symptoms have decreased.

 

I was feeling nauseous this morning, however that has largely passed.

 

It will be interesting to see how my energy levels are affected.

 

We will find out as the time progresses.

Third Day.

I had another restless night.

 

Woke up about 6 am, and ate some breakfast, then I went back to bed.

 

It is now almost midday, and I am cooking my lunch in the oven, homemade pizza.

 

How do I feel?

 

My head feels more relaxed - definite improvement.

 

However as with all things, one thing gets better and another gets worse.

 

My back is sore, so I am applying electrical pulses to soothe the muscles.

 

I am about to head out to the grocers, hopefully it will be a non-traumatic experience.

Extra Dose to Kick Start..

I had a very restless sleep.

 

I feel restless and not relaxed.

 

I just took another dose, in an effort to kick start the process.

 

The voices do seem quieter...I am getting impatient...to having a relaxed manner again..

Facts about Abilify.

I have suddenly become excited about this new drug!

It will be amazing to have a quiet mind again...to be able to read..and to watch films. To be able to relax in public..

Now..I just looked it up on Google and found a resource.

National Alliance on Mental Illness.

However...I do have concerns.. I have adapted myself to life without medication.

I believe I have highly achieved at work, and achieved in other aspects of my life to my great satisifaction.

However I have these problems:

My memory seems to only record factual information - I rarely record 'emotional' memories.

As I said before I feel uneasy and I miss not being able to enjoy the things I used to like reading, computing, film etc.

I am afraid in case the drug will 'dull' my mind, 'dull' my wits make me less sharp. However what excites me is that I am going to have a new experience of a new highly developed drug that works on a different receptor to that of Olanzapine. Who knows what lies ahead for my brain!! :)

First day with Abilify.

Current Condition Pre-medication:

Hearing voices - constantly.

Very difficult to relax.

Very difficult to sleep.

Very diiffcult to enjoy leisure.

Dosage: 10mg

Actual Condition:

Voices seem quieter.